I’m at a loss for words. It’s unbelievable to me, and many who know me, that I would be without the words to express myself.
This past year, I have been retreating farther and farther away from people and find myself really enjoying not talking to anyone, for days or weeks at a time. I feel like I want to become ‘invisible’. I’m also not that sure whether or not this is a negative or positive thing.
It feels safe and it doesn’t cause me anxiety.
It’s only been about 6 years since I discovered I had been ruled by anxiety my entire life and began the work to gain balance. I had always felt like there was just something “wrong” in my brain and that’s why I had struggled so long, I was surprised to find out I was wrong about that. Anxiety had kept me off kilter for years on end which caused a ton of physical damage that I now live with. Now that I know what it feels like to not be constantly anxious, I want more of it.
So, Do I remain isolated for my own protection or take a risk with people? I’m not sure yet, but let’s see what happens…
Thanks for reading, caring and sharing my journey.
I’m Lyn and I am a PREVAILER!